03-28-26:
Angie.....Since this page appears to be the way you prefer to communicate, This is a new section I'm adding where I will say what's going on in my mind right now. I will be adding content to this area as I think of it, there is too much I want to say to spill it all out in one session.

First of all, apologies for last night, I've got a lot on my mind, what with the looming prospect of me taking on administration of the entire analytics stack at work, the upcoming trip I'm preparing for, dealing with the boss from hell ... you've appeared in my life just a bit too early - but I'm glad you did. :)

Your fears

So when I saw you come in to the Bean last night, I saw that look on your face like, oh no it's that stalker again. I don't know what else I can do to alleviate your fears that I am a stalker, that I am a fringe whackjob....apparently just remaining your biggest fan until I'm prepared is not enough.I wouldn't even think of invading your privacy without your permission, nor harm you in any way. Admittedly, I have a very challenging life, being an autistic with no local family, no friends, and having to do everything by myself. Look, I have been an IT professional for nearly 40 years. If I wanted to, I could use my skills to find out EVERYTHING about you. But I won't without your permission, and also I am now a system administrator and have a reputation to uphold.

A little about me

I am 69 years old, a divorcee, and was born and raised in the Pacific Northwest. I am religious, attending church twice a week. I was a programmer analyst at Boeing for 16 years, maintaining such systems as Boeing's SAS platform for managing surplus parts, and a kitting designer application used to manage standards parts kits for the wide body aircraft final assembly lines. I possess dual BS degrees in Data Engineering and Geography from Arizona State University, and a MS in spatial data engineering from NAU in flagstaff. I've been working on the SRP contract for nearly 7 years as a data engineer and system administrator. I've lived in the Phoenix area since 2007.

How I think it should go

Slowly. Get to know each other. Start as casual friends, then good friends, then besties - then consider going further.

My thoughts on strong alpha females

Admittedly, they are a greater challenge for their partners. However, their partners gain massive benefits. The scriptures imply that God prefers that men partner with alpha females, for this reason. I have considered many super achieving men throughout history, from Phoenician kings to US presidents to rock stars to great military leaders - most all of them had a lady beside them, advising, encouraging, supporting, loving - giving swift kicks when necessary ;)

Stay tuned...

...More to come.

(sung to the tune of "Got My Mind Set On You", by George Harrison)

I got my mind set on you
I got my mind set on you
I got my mind set on you
I got my mind set on you

But it's gonna take-a-cure
A spe-cial autism cure
It's gonna take plenty of practice
To do it right now

It's gonna take time
A Whole lot of precious time
It's gonna take patience and ti-ime
To do it, to do it, to do it, to do it, to do it
To do it right

I got my mind set on you
I got my mind set on you
I got my mind set on you
I got my mind set on you

And this time I know it's real
The feelings that I feel
I know if I put my mind to it
I know that I can really do it

I got my mind set on you
Set on you
I got my mind set on you
Set on you

But it's gonna take money
Whole lotta spendin' money
It's gonna take plenty of money
To do it right now

It's gonna take time
Whole lot of precious time
It's gonna take patience and time
To do it, to do it, to do it, to do it, to do it
To do it right

I got my mind set on you
I got my mind set on you
I got my mind set on you
I got my mind set on you

And this time I know it's real
The feelings that I feel
I know if I put my mind to it
I know that I can really do it

But it's gonna take mu-sic
A whole lotta show of music
I'll need to nail the music
To do it right now

and-It's gonna take time
A whole lot of precious time
It's gonna take patience and time
To do it, to do it, to do it, to do it, to do it
To do it right

Set on you
Set on you
Set on you
Set on you
...

(response to the tune of "I Chase You Run", by Anjanette Indelicato)

(sung to the tune of "Babe I'm Gonna Leave You", by Led Zeppelin)

Babe, baby, baby, I've got to get cured first

I said baby, I got to head to Slovakia

When the summertime, when the summer comes a-rolli-n'

When the summer comes along

Babe, babe, babe, babe, babe, babe, baby Baby, I got to get cured first I ain't jokin', woman, I've got an appointment Oh yeah Baby, baby, I be cured first And several other things I gotta drop some baggage before I meet you

I gotta prove I'm worth your effort

chorus

I know, I know, I know you wanna meet but not like this

I cannot live like I do anymore

chorus

Oh, woman, woman, I know, I know Once the baggage is gone it'll really gonna grow, yes, it will

We gonna go walkin' through the park every day

Come what may, every day
Oh, my, my, my, my, my, my babe

I've got some dues to pay

So good, see, baby It will be really, really good I will make you happy every single day

But right now, I must be cured

chorus

(sung to the tune of "Rocket Man", by Elton John)

[Verse 1]
My bags are packed
For a timeless flight
Zero hour 8 AM
And I'm gonna be high
As a kite by then

[Chorus]
And I think it's gonna be a shorter time
Touchdown will bring me round again to find
I won't be the man I use to be at all oh no no no
I'll be normal
Yes I'll be normal
With a future as big and as bright as the dawn

[Verse 2]
Autism aint the way to be
In fact its lonely as hell
And my potential is lower than it really could be
And I work for a tyrant that doesn't understand
It's just his job 5 days a week
A rotten man
A rotten man

[Chorus]
And I think it's gonna be a shorter time
Touchdown will bring me round again to find
I won't be the man I use to be at all oh no no no
I'll be normal
Yes I'll be normal
With a future as big and as bright as the dawn

(sung to the tune of "Your Song", by Elton John)

[Verse 1]
It's a little bit funny
This feelin' inside
I'm one of those ... who can easily hide
I don't have much money, but boy, if I did
I'd take us to Nepal ... to-the-base-camp-of-Everest

[Verse 2]
If-I-was-a-potter like dad, heh
But then again, no
Or a pro skier, ... out in the snow
I know it's not much, but it's the best I can do
My gift is the lyrics-to-this song ... inspired by you

[Verse 3]
So excuse me for forgettin'
Where you'll play next
You see, I've forgotten
The next line of text
Anyway, the thing is
What I really mean
Yours are the bluest eyes I've ever seen

[Chorus]
And you can tell everybody
This is your song
It may be quite simple, but
Now that it's done
I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is
While you're in my world

(sung to the tune of "She's So High", by Tal Bachman)

[Verse 1]
She performs all alone
I have her all my own
Her voice is like a song bird
But shes an alpha lady as strong as teakwood
Until I've got the cure so I can treat her like I should

[Verse 2]
First class and fancy-free
She's got a master's degree
She's got a house in south Chandler
In my current state I have nothing to offer
But after I am cured I will treat her like she deserves

[Verse 3]
She comes to chat with me
Be honest and just be me
Tell her what I'll become when I'm cured
'Cause what she wants to see is confidence and an equal
′Just take it step by step and I will have her forever

[Chorus]
'Cause she's so high
High above me, she's so lovely
She's so high, like Cleopatra, Joan of Arc, or Aphrodite
Da-da-da-da
She's so high, high above me

(Sung to the chorus of "Last Kiss", by Pearl Jam)

Oh where oh where can my baby be
all-the-other-girls have rings on their pinkies
Or they're gay or they're happily divorced
I think I'll just mooove...to New York

(sung to the tune of "The Last Worthless Evening", by Don Henley)

I know you broke up with him
A messy divorce
It's been over three years for me
And I'm still not quite myself
You can't be with someone new
And you can't go back to him
You're beginning to realize
That it's sink or swim

I see you perform sometimes
And my heart just melts
You're lookin' like if you had your wish
You'd be somewhere else
And it just breaks my heart
To see you there that way
After I come back from the cure
I'll walk up to you and say

This is the last worthless evening
That you'll have to spend
Just have some patience
And I'll show you how to love again
This is the last worthless evening
That you'll have to spend
'Cause I'll be there
When your broken heart is on the mend

Every night it's the same old crowd
At the bean
You catch a faint glimpse of me
But im not ready yet
I've been around this block a time or two
And I've made some big mistakes
But after im cured, I promise you

It will be the last worthless evening
That you'll have to spend
Just have some patience
And I'll show you how to love again
This is the last worthless evening
That you'll have to spend
'Cause it won't be long
'Till your little heart is on the mend

(sung to the tune of "Reason", by )Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I could've done
But I will continue improving
I will become the man that you deserve

So I have to say before I fly away
That I just want you to know
I've got a reason for me
To reach neurotypicality

A reason to start over new
And that reason is you

I'm sorry that I avoid you
And won't even play the game

And the mistake last year at the bean
I wish that I could take that away
And be the one who speaks your name
That's why I need you to see

You've found a reason for me
To change what I used to be

A reason to start over new
And that reason is me